Know Kia without knowing Kia.

A while.

Sun, 26 Aug 2007 10:18:51 -0700

it has been quite a while since i last updated. had a lot of stuff happening since i last updated. been busy with production projects and competitions, it's really been an insane month for me. dad's been here and i got to spend the week with him. he's one of the coolest persons in the world i know, and my friends who have met him seems to think so, too. i feel so lucky as a daughter to be blessed with such a cool dad. his goodbye a few hours ago as he went back to iloilo was one of the mo ...

Viva!

Sat, 28 Jul 2007 22:12:10 -0700

If everything goes well, i'll finally live my dream. I love music! I love performing! I do it for God, for all my loved ones. Support is evident. And it makes me go on despite the sleepless nights in the recording studios, etc... i am compelled to do my best for the people I love, and the one who gave me this amazing opportunity.

Purpose. It made all the difference.

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You Go, Megara.

Wed, 18 Jul 2007 00:01:19 -0700

I like him.

No, maybe it's not just like, but i fell for him. but he doesn't know it. when he's there, i'm happy. i forget about stuff i got through. there's still hope, he says about my condition.

It's an involuntary feeling. Perhaps I'm not over that stage yet.

It's a one way thing, though. I know so. Call it a gut-feeling. And when it comes to gut feelings, i am rarely wrong.

So I'll settle for this: "At least out loud, ...

From my family to my friends.

Fri, 06 Jul 2007 22:11:24 -0700

Kang, i dont hav d email ads of ur frends, so pki forward nlng. mama wanted to tel dem ds, so ako na dn.

epi, louj, matthew, josie (tama ba, kang?)

kayo lagi nakkwento samin dito whenever she calls home. we are happy because you understood her condition, though you don't fully understand what she has to go through for now. she's going thru a lot, and it really warms our heart to hear her happy whenever she calls, and kayo nagpapasaya sa kanya. kahit na mahirap pinagdad ...

conversations.

Sat, 23 Jun 2007 23:08:24 -0700

hello dear blog I soooo missseddd youuu!!! (okay, i am communing with an inanimate object. anyway. i'd like to share a personal conversation I had with God. I just felt Him whisper, really. I mean, if you just listen, you'll hear Him. it's amazing.

me: hi Dad. (i like to call Him that when i pray)

God: what happened to your day today?

me: i sang in the univ center. it was family day, and i brought my non biological family with me

God: i saw you. it' ...

I actually considered doing all of these.

Mon, 18 Jun 2007 05:06:07 -0700

Annoying Things To Do In An Elevator

1) CRACK open your briefcase or handbag, peer Inside and ask "Got enough air in there?"
2) STAND silent and motionless in the corner facing the wall without getting off.
3) WHEN arriving at your floor, grunt and strain to yank the doors open, then act as if you're embarrassed when they open themselves.
4) GREET everyone with a warm handshake and ask him or her to call you Admiral.
5) MEOW occasionally.
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DAD.

Sat, 16 Jun 2007 02:03:08 -0700

Oh nothing. I jst decided to pop in for some reason. Happy father's day to my dad.. it means a lot to me that you came! Love you so much. And to all the fathers out there, you deserve the love.

DADDY! Proud to be your daughter. Proud to be called yours. Proud of making you proud, feeling your love, being with you makes me very very happy. Thank you for the stories, the patience, most of all, the time.

God let me feel how blessed I am to have such a father.

Promise ...

I want to go home.

Sat, 09 Jun 2007 23:34:21 -0700

I'm not happy here anymore. never have i felt lonelier in my entire life. with all the things that's been bugging me since i got here, i just don't know if i have the strength to face this head on, like the past. no, this is way different. this is so much harder to bear. and what's weird is that i don't feel anyone ready to be there this time. perhaps they all have gotten enough of my drama.

i don't blame them. i mean, i know, i brought this unto myself. per ...

This does not help at all.

Fri, 08 Jun 2007 01:22:44 -0700

"Jonathan Grigg, Professor of Paediatric Respiratory and Environmental Medicine at Queen Mary University London, said: "Idiopathic pulmonary haemosiderosis is a rare disease, the cause of which is unknown.

"Affected patients have episodes of bleeding in the lungs, which often need hospital admissions, and in some cases it can be life threatening. This is normally combated by the use of continuous oral steroids (which can have major side effects).

Dr Cooke said t ...

My Mommy's Email to Me.

Fri, 08 Jun 2007 01:07:21 -0700

"Hi Baby Kang!

I hope you're doing ok now. I know it was hard for you to make a decision whether you should stay or not but I know what you want and i'm sure God does, too. I know that you want to stay to be with me but knowing that you would have wanted to give up your dream and your future for me is worth more than the sweetest words anyone could mutter. It makes me feel important and much ...

Back Home...

Sun, 03 Jun 2007 19:57:00 -0700

I'm so drained from that getaway! We again visited my favorite nature park/resort Mambukal. We almost got to ride on the slide for life. It was kind of a canopy walk, but when we got to the place no one was there to supervise. Oh well, we got to the boating site instead. Hooraay for Kayak races! Then we went for a swim, occassional eating in between. After the resort, the day wasn't over. We went to SM Bacolod to watch a movie. We went home at about 11pm that day and everyone went ...

Hello Vacation!

Wed, 30 May 2007 02:30:10 -0700

I finally had a shot at real vacation. Going to where the heart is-- home. Bacolod City is one of the many places in the world not everyone has knowledge about. But for me, it's one of the coolest places in the world.

I just came back from Seaside Resort and I had such a blast. Nothing beats home as it is. Tomorrow the whole family again goes to any native restaurant here since my grandpa planned to treat us somewhere. Well, his grandchildren are here. Hehe.

It's my mo ...

On Popularity.

Mon, 21 May 2007 23:57:28 -0700

I watched an interesting episode on Tyra Banks this morning. I can't tell you how much it got me thinking. There were these three girls, Sandra, 17, Jessica, 18 and Erica, 14, who so desperately want to be the "popular kids in high school". The common denominator among them were two things: "If I become popular, I'd be the happiest girl in the world." and "I want to be like Paris Hilton and Nicole Richie."

Poor things.

So here's w ...

A letter for she who gave me the nickname "Kia-Star".

Mon, 21 May 2007 02:17:24 -0700

It started from that quote. I forgot how it goes but there you go, real friends are like stars. Yep. And you started calling me that. I happen to like it a lot, too.

Tough cookie, that's another story.

Hmmm. Perhaps I'm just too bored nowadays. You know what, I am so glad I chose that environmental science class. It made all the difference in the world.

You pushed me to go on if there are stuff that pressed me so far underground. You dug it up, let me through a ...

The Irony.

Mon, 21 May 2007 01:57:18 -0700

I was just thinking a lot today. Last night, i slept at about 3 am. I was just in bed, trying to deal with a thousand thoughts rambling through my head. Most of it was about being in love. In thinking so, i realized a couple of things.

Number one, you can't make someone fall in love with you. It just actually comes to the individual's thoughts, whether the ideal picture is painted once he looks at you. Nothing can paint it for him, except himself. And he decides whether he t ...

Stuff I learned from Cashback

Mon, 21 May 2007 00:12:01 -0700

I recently watched Cashback the Movie. So much stuff I learned, particularly about seeing the beauty in stuff that happens. Perhaps, quoting lines wouldn't hurt. These are my favorite excerpts from the film:

Ben: I've always wanted to be a painter, maybe have my work hung in a gallery one day.
Sharon: I've always wanted to meet a painter.
Ben: Why?
Sharon: I think it might have somethin ...

Commentary on Youth Leadership.

Sun, 20 May 2007 06:07:00 -0700

"...why is our nation still buried underground? Because we still fail to realize the reality that we cannot depend on the youth to change a phase. As ugly as it may seem to sound, young people only base their thoughts on what is empirical, not exactly on what is actually happening. How then, can they be credible enough in order to change anything? The youth, yes, is the hope of the fatherland but how? Education and experience. And who has more of these? Those who are actually sitting ...

Another Product of Boredom and Reflective Mood.

Fri, 18 May 2007 21:30:30 -0700

Bare Hands

I lie awake, the moon hath come

The shimmering light hath ruled the dome

The words escape as my hand writes

I chase a dream of winning a fight

My eyes dart down and soon they sought

The battle scars the thorn had brought

Looked at a face, my mind explodes

I shout out loud, "Why such a load?"

I rest my head and closed my eye ...

15 Minute Poem.

Fri, 18 May 2007 03:52:29 -0700
Three Words

I peep out
Shed a tear
Out the world
I see clear

I am held
By a lass
As my life
Start to pass

And I grow
Time with me
Just the joys
Do I see

By and by
I sense storm
Grip my faith
I feel warmth

I hold on
To His hand
Pain is here
Still I stand

And I see
Past the gates< ...

Just Waiting

Wed, 16 May 2007 22:50:59 -0700

I'm just waiting. The university real time enlistment bugs me in a lot of ways. It lets you wait and wait and wait and wait....
I suppose it tests patience. That's the good side of it, i'm guessing. Oh well. It just goeas to show that in order to see the rainbow you have to put up with the rain.
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Two rules on writing.

Wed, 16 May 2007 01:42:29 -0700

Two friends are walking down the beach one day. Let's call them Tim and Tom. They got into an argument until Tim slapped Tom hard 'round the face.
Tom then wrote on the sand: "Tim slapped me today."
After things got settled, a horrible storm blew in. A branch of a tree broke and fell down fast, going to Tom's direction. Upon reflex, Tim pulled him out of the way just in the nick of time.
After the storm, Tom found a rock. He wrote: "Tim saved m ...

I found out something today.

Tue, 15 May 2007 21:36:24 -0700

I found out the disadvantages of being beautiful for some people. They are often the victims of people who fall in love for the superficial reasons. What is beyond what's superficial is most often overlooked. And what's overlooked is most often what matters.
Tsk tsk.
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Battle Scars.

Tue, 15 May 2007 03:04:26 -0700

Never regret anything because at one point it was exactly what you wanted.
I have my syringe scars to prove it.

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Random.

Tue, 15 May 2007 02:52:13 -0700

Sometimes, the wind just glides your face, letting you know of its existence. When time passes, it actually shouts how it doesn't stick around forever. When a little boy pats you at the back, it lets you know of a need to be recognized, to be noticed, to let you be aware of his wants, maybe, his needs.
A lot of beings don't usually recognize what's in their lives, let alone what has been there for the past (insert age here) years or so. We look for stuff we think is bey ...

I am a writer.

Tue, 15 May 2007 02:37:26 -0700

I am Kia. I am a writer. I write to express. I write to vent. I write so I can tell whoever cares what is happening around me. In a pathologically dissatisfied world I live in, I want to take delight in simple things. I want to be content. I want to cheat on life. I want my rules on happiness to be simple so they will be stacked on my favor. I am a writer. I write to change the world. I touch my little corner. I let that touch flow for countless millenia. I write about God. About miracles ...