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Episode #7 Unexpected Pleasure

Thu, 15 Mar 2007 21:19:07 -0700

The phone rings, playing the joyfully tropical ringtone I selected. It is meant to cheer me up, and strangely, it does. I answer, "Hello?"

"Hey, it's me," His sweetly seducive voice whispers, It pours over the phone with the sweetly addictive taste of honey. It fills my ears, my heart, my soul. The emptiness that has been lingering so long is filled so completely--if only for a moment. I can a ...

Episode #6 From the Start

Wed, 14 Mar 2007 22:15:06 -0700

I knew from our first kiss that eventually we would fall out of love, lose our passion and the newness and novelty of our relationship.

Yet it seems to have taken me by surprise.

Damn relationships. Damn morals. Damn religion. Damn marriage. Damn wedding rings.

Yesterday I decided I need to start waking up earlier. I decided to try it today, and I set my alarm to go off at 8:00 am. This was, of course, torture, as I had been eagerly checking my email until 2 am, with hopes of an email from my sweetheart. I laid down with great sadness in my heart, bitterly disappointed and feeling unloved, unworthy, uncared for and utterly depressed.

But it was beautifully compensate ...

Episode #4 A Lonely Heart

Sun, 11 Mar 2007 19:27:17 -0700

No "special" friends today. Just me and my husband.

Today, he tried. It was noticable. He didn't use the computer all day. He watched Baby while I slept. He held me close. He gave me hugs and cuddles. He was kind. He spoke nicely. He waited on me. He didn't criticize.

He gained a few points today, but not enough to recover him ...

Episode #3 The Ultimate Betrayal

Fri, 09 Mar 2007 20:26:14 -0800

My husband's strong hands wrap themselves around my neck, his long fingers entangling themselves in my hair. A fit of passion has possessed him, and he clings to me as though I am the only woman on the earth. His lips roam my body, his tongue gracefully and wonderfully teasing my flesh. His warm breath on my skin is strangely unmoving. He holds my body close, clinging to me as though I were life itself. He pulls me on top of him, ...

Episode #2 Lonely Awakenings

Fri, 09 Mar 2007 08:19:00 -0800

I put my sweet friend's music on to play last night, and let him sing me away in to my dreams. I snuggled into my blankets, yearning for that explicitly grand connection that I once felt toward my husband. That need, that love, that exquisite agony that compelled me to think of him, crave him, need him all day every day. Now, I am empty, devoid of all feeling but this insatiable lust for other men. And my s ...

Episode #1 The Wandering Mind

Fri, 09 Mar 2007 01:11:10 -0800

I love the scent of his cologne, the beauty of his face. The mystery in his eyes and the way that he looks at me as though he really cares. I love the attentiveness in his every feature. The way every inch of him pays attention to every word I say. He respects me. He talks to me, and he listens when I talk. He makes me laugh and laughs with me. He smiles.
How long has ...