using caution... |is this how you really feel?|

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Sat, 29 Nov 2008 18:34:14 -0800

I am going to have a completely lazy Sunday, doing nothing useful, just downing black coffee and appreciating the after-taste.

Oh! How liberating is that thought!

...

grumblings....

Fri, 28 Nov 2008 23:16:20 -0800

If I were to get 1 penny for every time I was rudely awaken, and sent off to fulfill tasks that others can do in my place, I would be able to host who-want-to-be-a-millionaire. Seriously, I believe I can. Isn't it annoying, that the superiors choose the same few people to do work, laborious or intellectual challenging all the same, while others laze around. I mean, it annoys the crap out of me, seriously. Just because we get things done, does it mean we are to be abused and be asked t ...

Bottomless pit.

Sun, 23 Nov 2008 00:46:17 -0800

Circularity, such is the element of life, the domination of events and the recurrent factor we hold dear. Friends, there is this feeling of stasis, of neutrality, being stuck as a dispassionate force whenever I think of my current status. We understand, we do, that nature is governed by such cyclical patterns, that mathematicians attempt to quantify, but what we are going through isn't natural. Dearest readers, you have no idea how much it hurts - to be reduced to nothingness, to dumb ...

A ray of sunshine

Fri, 21 Nov 2008 09:19:33 -0800

I'm telling you, what drive a man over the edge isn't stupid people; it is a truckload of them. When a whole, urm, union is being run by retards that draw high salaries doing about nothing sensible, it really can turn a completely sane guy in to a serial killer. So many thoughts are emerging, cannot stop them, because they themselves feel the need to DESTROY THOSE ANNOYING SONNONABITCH!

But I'll cool down, and I will take it easy. Because I know they most probably ...

Hobby

Sun, 16 Nov 2008 21:34:28 -0800

Today's lunch: home made roasted bell peppers, assorted wild mushrooms and chicken stir-fry, served on toasted focaccia bread. Yum yum!

PS: darn, ran out of olives.

...

Face-paint

Sat, 08 Nov 2008 22:50:21 -0800

Oh I sure miss the stage, may it be dance or theatre. No, it isn't all narcissistic and the, lately way-common understanding, me-me-me, or the pre-occupation of self, mirror and wants. It really is about performing, about the life reforming ability it encompasses and beauty of the craft, the art and science of performing. See, I started way late and as a result, I think I can't get enough! I hear about the kids in school, some performing as part of a troupe in their co-curriculum ...

The plea

Sat, 08 Nov 2008 00:30:58 -0800

So very allusive, proving that she is the most deceitful of elements. We want like beggars desires like lovers. The flight of thoughts and memory, oh great Huginn and Muninn, wings spread and speed forth. The Ravens are reminders of the beauty beyond reach, the serenity out of touch. That the mind can transverse distances and obstacles the body cannot. Physical weaknesses, so crippling, holds us ransom to our desires. We seek, dream, chase but finds none, for there is nothing as vile as c ...

The endless

Fri, 07 Nov 2008 22:20:23 -0800

...and Delirium replies with,

"one who knows too much eventually goes insane"

in addition to the fact that,

"one who knows truth as truth and nothing else can't comprehend this world of lies."

-Gaiman.

...

Gastronomical wonderland

Fri, 07 Nov 2008 09:01:24 -0800

I am telling you, I am completely in love with Rachael Ray, the talk-show host and wonderful home-trained chef. She makes wonderful recipes and is really cool. She will be going for a throat operation in Dec and I wish her all the best. Really, to all the foodies out there, you need to take note of her and start cooking like she does. Simple, easy, fast, wholesome. I won't get the chance to cook as often as I am this week no more. Too bad for a lot of people... sigh.

And t ...

America has chosen.

Thu, 06 Nov 2008 21:06:46 -0800

Tis for the politically aware, and the intellectual :]

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/27568141/?GT1=43001

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/27576931/

...

Momentum

Wed, 05 Nov 2008 19:09:57 -0800

Tic-toc tic-toc. Time passes, almost tangible, you can see it zoom pass and speed forth. And the break is much appreciated, meeting up with people I care about it appropriate and essential at this stage of my struggle. Indeed, we attempt to do all we can during this last few days, but we question if we are really spending it holistically enough, or economically enough. We wonder and we wonder, and we realise that wondering such aspects take way too much time. Just let the hair down, relax ...

Interesting....

Sat, 01 Nov 2008 06:51:12 -0700

One in four students 'sleeps in lectures'

By Richard Garner and Lucy Hodges
Thursday, 9 September 2004

One in four students admit sleeping in lectures at university, a survey for The Independent reveals today.

The survey of more than 1,300 students at 96 universities also shows that 25 per cent believe t ...

A hook, a jab, a kick - battle ended.

Thu, 30 Oct 2008 02:49:08 -0700

It is a monumental task, to condense the epic I and my smart-assed and half-bitchy (mostly) friends have just experienced. The chance of a lifetime, to get lung cancer even though we are largely non smokers, thanks to the cloud of fine sand that gets kicked up whenever any movement is sensed. I am betting 50 cents (seriously) that there is a censor somewhere, that whenever motion is felt, leads the artifice to open a portal from the unknown and blow out tons of sand. Hmmm, very scientific ...

A most inopportune episode (and I am trying to sound calm over here)

Sun, 05 Oct 2008 02:32:36 -0700

I can, quite easily, recall two incidences where I found and returned someone's wallet. Yes, wallet containing considerable amount of money and important identifications. In particular, I recollect a wallet a found in a hawker center with someone's I.C inside. And me, being me, went to the police center and returned it. Another time, I found a wallet and it happened to belong to a friend of my friend, to the knowledge of which I hastily returned the wallet. So, I have done my part ...

Assurance in self, showcase of thoughts and liberation of passion

Sat, 04 Oct 2008 00:12:20 -0700

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EwP_t07_j_0

It takes pretty much a universe worth of guts to showcase who you are in public. In addition, to appear emotionally naked and express your innermost emotions, I applaud. There must be a reason why the singer PINK has been around for an eternity. She bares it all, in her songs and her public life in the limelight. When she sings, you can really feel as though she is letting true ...

Contour

Fri, 03 Oct 2008 09:40:30 -0700

And when the war against the undead dragged long and hard, the hearts of those defending humanity grew cold and weary. Fatigued, they dropped their weapons and laid themselves on to the ground, to be enslaved by the approaching armies of fiends.

It was only then that desperation drew the attention of Barrierina, who, with great haste took the form of a slander female, standing upon a floating and translucent board.

When she spoke, the air aroun ...

Progression

Fri, 03 Oct 2008 03:22:46 -0700

"Your application has been processed by UCAS", now all I can do is pray.

Constantly surging is the demand for efficiency in this dis-Organisation, and so is the desire to slap some of its leaders right in the face. I am hoping to leave marks on their faces too though. Today was supposed to be a half day, half? The only thing that was halved was expectation by us and the competence of the managers.

ARGH!

On the sideline, I must say I witnessed a ...

FANATIC!

Tue, 30 Sep 2008 20:05:22 -0700

I am an addict. Constantly afflicted by desires to:
1. have caffeine in my body (in the morning) and
2. have alcohol in my body (at unearthly hours).

There is a problem, besides the fact that my liver (and I almost typed lover here, HAHA) is working OT, my calorie count is horrid thanks to all these liquid calories. Okay, the caffeine part is now under cont ...

Heroism.

Sun, 28 Sep 2008 02:24:16 -0700

Madness, complete madness how everything collides in such short notice and us, the ones who don't have power suffer. Blazing that already ever-burning annoyance with the disorganisation, help, please send as some assistance to tide this over. The senseless timing for courses and brainless, needless desire for people to bear burden to clocking a certain mileage fills my heart with so much, erm, darkness! So many evil thoughts have I generated in my mind, those of grandeur and righteous ...

Break the ice.

Sat, 27 Sep 2008 00:40:12 -0700
Listen to this my friends,
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XTf7zVmwqzg .

And practice using this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LPE83sQJH68 .

I love this song in it's original dance-y beat with strong base, but it in a softer beat, acapella st ...

In an instance, sharp contrast.

Fri, 26 Sep 2008 22:47:47 -0700
Waiting for Godot by Samuel Beckett:

VLADIMIR:
I don't hear a word you're saying.
ESTRAGON:
(chews, swallows). I'm asking you if we're tied.
VLADIMIR:
< ...

Enthused by great artistic concepts!

Fri, 26 Sep 2008 08:05:07 -0700

Two dances, both extremely emotional while having great emphasis on technique and physical line. Please take time off to consider these two pieces of conceptual art.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z860Ngn_MnA

The first impression was spasmodic, beautiful occasional contractions varied with moments of off-beat movements or elongated actions to fill up longer beats. What is impressive is the expression of the d ...

Keep posted

Fri, 26 Sep 2008 02:21:54 -0700

All these rushing are beyond comprehension! The complete lack of time to deal with issues like packing and purchasing of items essential for the twenty odd days... We aren't going for a field trip my friends, we are going to work, to experience things, amongst tons of grunts and unwilling sighs, and it isn't going to be for a few days. Twenty odd days my friends, the least one can do is to give us time to prepare. Seriously, the scheduling in this organisation is completely mispla ...

Sweet smells lead to sweet dreams?

Mon, 22 Sep 2008 06:39:23 -0700

Can smells sweeten your dreams? Certain aromas, such as lavender, are known to have soporific effects, but once you're asleep, can smells influence what you dream about?
To fin ...

Voyage

Sat, 20 Sep 2008 23:13:42 -0700

I am telling all, the WET MARKET (almost another entity by itself) is completely scary! I mean it! I went for my virgin wet market trip this morning and boy was it scary! Oh yes, I should also mention that it was a virgin, SOLO trip to the wet market. Boy was the area filled with such colourful sights and sounds, and well, smells. No no, not the smell of poultry or fish or vegetables, but that of unwashed pits and unclean back. Really, I think human can smell the worst, compared to all ot ...

Anorexia

Fri, 19 Sep 2008 20:26:30 -0700
He saw the ad on the newspaper,
promoted by Thomas, a Mr. Nast.
Didn't know what he was getting into,
couldn't see the damage it would lead.
He signed up, cheerfully,
and his charming disposition trapped him in,
he chose it.
No one to blame but his own foolishness.
Books, Papers, News and even mental images,
filled themselves diligently with his pictorials.
He works for a month, every other time,
he stares at the mirror.
A ...

Hiding

Fri, 19 Sep 2008 19:43:07 -0700

David Archuleta - crush

I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time deep inside
It was a rush, what a rush

'Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way about me
It's just too much, just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I e ...

Conviction!

Sun, 14 Sep 2008 01:03:29 -0700

Like I was saying, it is almost like life and death. What is? Dearest, dance is! The atmosphere of creation, or creativity and of longevity encapsulated in such vitality, stored and constantly restored in time, dance dearest, and only dance! The movement scores, the highlighted emotive powers and the eclectic states of mind only attainable through dance, via the body is such a joy to watch; and such a blessing to be involved in! Vulnerability, it shows, surely the weakness of a dancer sho ...

Throbbing subsistence!

Fri, 12 Sep 2008 07:58:31 -0700

Such emergence is the making of pitiful surroundings, afflicting annoyance and, if you allow, f-ed up habitual destructive manners of existence. It is as if we are enveloped with a film of air, one that is recycled over time and loses its tint of freshness, but still, oppressed and denounced even by our fellow kind. The stint there is getting horrible with much less to look forward to, we wonder if the shadows doth not hide in the corners and jokily, oh how witty, snicker at out predicame ...

In his head

Sat, 06 Sep 2008 06:33:03 -0700

A Master of the mesmeric act walks amongst us,
hidden and stalking our every move.
He is silent, swift and charming,
inhumanly charismatic and pleasant.
But no, the Mesmer isn't normal, no he isn't just well trained.
The Mesmer is gifted with a wonderful skill,
the influence of mental thoughts.
Bodily resistance will be futile;
no scholar can defend against his art either.
He is strong, and a look into his eyes,
oh how brave,

Renewal

Fri, 05 Sep 2008 09:45:29 -0700

Rejuvenation - finally, clearing out my junk more like, mental load accumulating to such weighty significance. Profoundly exasperating it was, but now it is clean, plain and no longer clogged up - at last. It eases the burden of daily being, it enlightens the path to which my life is dictated to go towards. Such is the condition of flight, of freedom and of the wonderfully rare chances at choosing. Such is the time of relaxation and reinvention, when we look at our reflections and ask our ...

Stare at yourself in the mirror and practice away...!

Mon, 01 Sep 2008 04:40:17 -0700

[Many ways to skin a cat - Raeesa Aniff]

I can tell you where it started. I was six years old, and I remember sitting crossed legged on the veranda with my magnifying glass. A present from my step-dad, he thought I'd grow up to be a scientist. Angling it just right so that the light would shine in a point directly on the ant I had been stalking. I remember the sizzle and the way they'd squirm ...

We are only as fast as the slowest team-mate.

Sun, 31 Aug 2008 03:53:31 -0700

I was at the McDonald's in NUS (Engineering building) when I saw this family of four. Present were the father, the maid and two teenagers, aged, I take liberty in guessing, 17 and 14. So what's so special you ask...? It is the fact that I believe these two kids is afflicted with down-syndrome as identifiable by distinctive facial features. What caught my eye was how much the two teenagers actually wanted to learn. The older girl was getting sauces from the self-servicing dispensin ...

Amazing

Sat, 23 Aug 2008 07:06:32 -0700
Please watch:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y-1QbCoq8g4&feature=related
and
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BSMF1VcMxEw&feature=related

:] ...

my anchor

Sat, 23 Aug 2008 02:32:54 -0700
Cant believe I wrote this in my previous entry...

For the few who find their way in life,
not many bother to look behind.
but to truely appreciate fruits of labour,
we have to know where we can always habour.

How true, and I do look back... ...

You have to smell my abomination to believe it

Sat, 23 Aug 2008 02:24:24 -0700

Alright, I must say that this organisation impresses me more and more everyday. It takes so much lack-of in the leadership department to manage time the way this wonderful organisation I call A10 does. Really, I mean, to take up the whole of our Saturday and not seem a bit penitent? How dare they be pretentious and ostentatious in ‘appreciating us taking our Sat off"? Friend, we had no say in this! We were asked to stay, oh pardon me, we were TOLD to stay, and we stayed! ...

turning.

Mon, 18 Aug 2008 18:41:20 -0700
" It seems a shame to play them such a trick, after we've brought them out so far and made them trot so quick " ...

Derelict play-mate

Mon, 18 Aug 2008 07:37:05 -0700

[http://flickr.com/photos/82091296@N00/84005289/]-the inspiration.

Masked, but she is so very naked. We will never understand the pain and the darkness that toys with her heart. ITs heart - called out for navigation, direction, and help. Silence and there is silence only. And stillness, an immensity of motionlessness that haunts her even now. It tortures IT, blinding her faith, making IT lifeless. But she thinks, IT ...

Melting!!!!

Sun, 17 Aug 2008 22:59:45 -0700

Now who knew editing the UCAS personal statement will take so much steam away from me. Sigh...
...

...but we did...

Sun, 17 Aug 2008 22:56:07 -0700

The exploration of conditions as such: the sensitivity in the human predicament as an amalgam originating from a kind of metal ore we all long for, Gold. But fear not, we have done well, our three talented paddlers bought home a medal for the Red Dot just yesterday. One repercussion is recognition, recognition that we need foreign talent just as much as we need to breathe. Note that 50% of this year's Olympic contingent from Singapore consists of foreign blood. But doubt not their loy ...

'Fate-of-empires'

Fri, 15 Aug 2008 03:34:21 -0700
All who have meditated on the art of governing mankind have been convinced that the fate of empires depends on the education of youth. - Aristotle. ...

Echos of innermost desires.

Fri, 15 Aug 2008 03:21:43 -0700

I once heard sounds with claws, piercing and all encompassing. Spirals downwards and effectively affect self-worth. The resonance is like hurtful pins, knifes attacking the insides of the human self-being. Every bit of self-doubt resurfaced and refused to be submerged again, like glue, like wax, no pus more like. Evil infection by-products, all these surrounded by crude and unforgiving situations and happenings makes a dirty man a really irate man. They evolve into compounds of toxin natu ...

And the body speaks once more.

Sat, 09 Aug 2008 23:06:11 -0700
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UnotKKgYUwE

Now friends, this is what JAZZ is all about. Jazz is release, emotional, filled with contraction and floorwork. Together with fluid movement connections aligned with timely spastic recoils and powerful inter-dancer sensitivity, Jazz is powerful and explosive. The above piece clearly explains it. However, the one above has it's loyalty towards contraction and relationship betwee ...

Home

Sat, 09 Aug 2008 06:48:44 -0700

Let this 43^rd birthday be a time for recollection. What strikes me most is the criteria we use to call some place our home. Home, how very cliché. As the saying goes, a home is where the heart is. Indeed, where is my heart than? To me, the heart resides where it is allowed to explore, to freely determine his versions of truth and at the same time, be able to have an outlet for artistic and scientific outpour. Home has to be emotionally and spiritually enriching with a gr ...

Complete blindness

Fri, 08 Aug 2008 22:00:17 -0700

Finally, I have finished my UCAS personal statement. It is about time right! Took about an hour for my first draft, time to read and re-read for a gazillion times. It's the only way to consolidate the ideas I want to present. And I do hope it is impressive enough.

On a different note, the past weeks had been advantageous for retrospective evaluation. I realised that since I have another one half years to serve, I might as well make the best out of it. I am going to try and ...

Law of physics.

Sun, 27 Jul 2008 02:32:22 -0700
It's really hard to start writing the UCAS essay. Thank goodness I still have time, I believe. I'm rather reluctant to initiate at all - inertia, massive inertia.

But I'll need to start writing it soon, and this week I'll reflect, why Biology, why Biochemistry and why UK. I do have answers, but they are completely unconstructed - in chaos.

Fingers crossed. ...

One day you'll see; we'll all see.

Sat, 26 Jul 2008 00:58:47 -0700

A twisted thought, compounded by ill-timing and horrid situation makes me wonder, the right use of public-money. Truth is, I am apprehensive about 2010, about the changes and the challenges. But more so, about the competitive nature of things and how I am not studying with my familial cash. Not at all. The public is roped in to help me pay off my education and living fees, all in hopes of me coming back; being useful and doing in my designated ministry. Sure thing, I'll come back and ...

There comes a day.

Sat, 19 Jul 2008 21:19:33 -0700

Sat night was refreshing, no alcohol, no wild partying, just lots of Hokkaido crab and soba and green tea at a japanese buffet. Now, it was great spending time with the old council mates. Though some looked more ancient than others, no names here though haha. It was amazing, amazing how we were all still so close, no problems initiating conversations, discourse was smooth and silences rare and few in between. Noting that we haven't seen each other in about 5 million years. Seriously. ...

Processes...

Fri, 18 Jul 2008 05:49:31 -0700
I am rather blessed I believe. With Ippt silver and confirmation of my scholarship, things are going good. My bunk too, is amazing and so are most of the people in camp. The trainings and all might be tough but, I mean, if we stick together, we should be able to withstand all. Right? Right.

And it is interesting, once again, to wake up early in the morning. I need my morning silences by myself to clear thought in my mind, to focus and to recharge. Dearest friends, rest alone canno ...

One step at a time - Jordin Sparks...

Sun, 13 Jul 2008 02:22:53 -0700
da da da um da da
da da da ba um da da
da da da um da da
da da da ba um da da

Hurry up and wait
So close, but so far away
Everything that you always dreamed of
Close enough for you to taste
But you just can't touch

You wanna show the world but no one knows yours name yet
Wonderin' when, where and how you're going to make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face and the door keeps slamming
N ...