The Laughing Heart

Sun, 04 May 2008 08:42:21 -0700

The Laughing Heart

Your life is your life

Don't let it be clubbed into dank submission

Be on the watch

THere are ways out

Public Speaking

Wed, 16 Apr 2008 18:04:12 -0700
So I am in my last year of college and just found out I have aquired a tremendous fear of speaking in front of people. This is something that is definitely new to me since it always bothered me in the past but I could still just get up there and do it and be fine. However now, I physically cannot bring myself to do it and I don't know what's wrong with me. When I am about to get up to give a speech in front of a classroom I start to feel weak, my hands shake, I feel dizzy and I serio ...

Need to get it out

Tue, 29 Jan 2008 23:44:42 -0800
I am feeling mushy so this blog might reflect that..just a little. Neways I have been thinking a lot about love lately and what it means to love and be loved. I am not talking just boyfriend girlfriend love but the love that fills all of your relationships and the kind you always hope to get back in return. Now obviously the love you have with a "lover" is going to be a lot different and stronger than the love you may have in a friendship but I realize more and more how impor ...

Abortion

Sun, 04 Nov 2007 16:30:23 -0800
So I am all for freedom of speech and allowing people to voice there own opinions because that is what makes America the great country that it is however I do believe this right can be taken too far and I saw this done the other day. I attend a state univsity that has these things called "freedom steps" at the front of the campus. This is where most radicals go and voice there opinion on things such as the president and saving the environment. Well the other day is halloween and I ...

Cheating

Fri, 17 Aug 2007 02:00:26 -0700

I don't understand why people act the way they do. Yesterday some series of events took place that makes me question not only people I thought I could trust but my own actions as well. A friend I work with and I kissed a few nights ago at a bar. I really thought a lot of this guy and the way he treated women with just the upmost respect was something I am not used to seeing. We had a harmless few days of flirting and yesterday he has a BBQ and everyone from work is invited. Afte ...

ghosts from the past

Sun, 03 Jun 2007 20:04:02 -0700

So I get these phone calls the other night around 130am which at the time I am dead asleep. The ex is really wanting to get ahold of me for some reason and it's been 2months with no words,emails or anything between us. Last time he called me out of the blue like this his dad died, so I picked up. I felt guilty immediately because I told myself after what he did to me I would never talk to him again but, as in many other aspects of my life, self control did not kick in at the moment. H ...

Death

Mon, 07 May 2007 00:06:35 -0700
So a friend of mine found his little sister dead in her bed this morning. She was 19 and a freshman in college. She went out the night before and my friend put her to bed because she had too much to drink and then went to wake her up this morning to find her dead. I can't even begin to imagine what he is going through having to see his sister dead after just a night of going out with her friends. I never met the girl that died but I can't get the story out of my head. She was so youn ...

Where I am at right now

Sun, 06 May 2007 12:33:57 -0700

I have turned into a needy person...when did this happen?!?! I never felt the need to have a man in my life or a boyfriend, I enjoyed being single and free...sex on the side was just a bonus but relationship? psh no way. Then I got a boyfriend, broke up with boyfriend and find myself being desperate for any sort of male interaction right now. I have lowered my standards just to fill some void and I don't even know where it came from! However the good news is I am starting to not ...

Dumpers Remorse

Wed, 25 Apr 2007 22:37:34 -0700
Ok, I bought this book...."It's called a breakup because it's broken" (yes it got to that point!) LOL and what I am suffering from would be considered "dumpers remorse" I moved out, I broke the relationship off and for some reason I cannot get over this thing! Of course we were on and off after I moved out but as of a few weeks ago an extremely bad night happened (this would require another blog) and now we officially are over and to the extent of, unless I run in ...

Ex's

Wed, 07 Feb 2007 09:21:45 -0800

Break ups suck. There is no way around it. See here is my problem, I don't think it's too hard to stay friends after a break up. Here is the catch though, the only way this works is if the break up is mutual. If one person was burned by the other though a friendship is just really out of the question. Feelings are still lingering along with the bitter after taste of being dumped and continuing to talk and bring them to the surface just makes things worse. On the other ha ...

My first Blog

Mon, 05 Feb 2007 16:48:45 -0800

Okay so I always hear about this whole "blogging" craze but never really took the time to try it out myself. So here I am sitting on my butt wondering what I am supposed to be "blogging" about to the whole internet world. Maybe for my first one I should just pick a topic and go off on it so that maybe one person can randomly read this and think I am crazy or I can just feel satisfied that I made a contribution to shoutpost.com. Either way, here it goes
So I am ab ...