Logical Vs. Emotional

Wed, 02 Jul 2008 19:46:58 -0700

It would be lovely if I could tell you that I was out of the doldrums and getting on with my life, but the truth is that nothing has really changed. I'm still completely broken-hearted, and it has been weeks.

Truth be told, it would be so much easier if I didn't have any contact with him at all, but the wound has been opened over and over again since the last post. He appears, he disappears. He stops over, he aims, he texts. I do the same. But still, the emptiness exists and ...

How To Fall Out of Love

Fri, 30 May 2008 19:10:35 -0700

How long has it been? A week? Two weeks? Time seems sort of muddled right now...all of the days merge into one another and become one long, unhappy day.

I can't get over it. For a while I'll do well, but something will happen - a dream, a smell, some reminder - and I'm thrown back into the deep dark well. It hasn't helped that summer is coming upon us slowly...summer is my absolute FAVORITE season.

I've been reading self-help books during the times when I ...

Breakup Day...Take 4....

Wed, 07 May 2008 16:10:16 -0700

Well, today I broke it off with my sorta-on-again-off-again boyfriend-like love interest who we shall call John for the purposes of this blog. The first day is the very hardest, but we have been working up to this moment for quite some time. Yes, I've started drinking already - I picked up the biggest bottle of Ketal One the liquor store had, along with a case of Squirt and three different varieties of 99 cent chip bags to keep me going. Tonight, I will proceed to get very, very drunk ...