Who I am when no one is watching

Workaholic

Sat, 30 Jun 2007 04:01:57 -0700

I've never been what one could call a "workaholic". I've never really loved my job with the passion that it requires for it to become all-consuming. But I can understand why people would throw themselves into their work. If I had a job that I could do that with right now, I'd be tempted to not ever go home. Sometimes, it just isn't worth it to come home to emptiness and silence. I almost long for someone to ask me to stay a little lo ...

Expectations

Fri, 29 Jun 2007 18:36:42 -0700

I would love to think of myself as a cynic. I wish I could just say that I have low expectations for how things will turn out and then when they turn out better than I hoped, I will be happy. But unfortunately, I still have that nagging optimist inside who expects way too much of certain situations.

I felt like a 4 year old on Tuesday night as I pouted all the way home about what I had been looking forward to for weeks. I couldn't just accept the fact that I h ...

My Own Worst Enemy

Sun, 24 Jun 2007 07:47:44 -0700

While on the air this morning, I was talking to one of my listeners. And she said the oddest thing to me. "I've never met you, but whenever you come up in conversation, people always say 'I wish Jez knew how great she was' And not just one person, but almost everyone says that when you come up."

I guess I'm my own worst enemy. I'm still blushing from the compliment.

I just have to say that Sunday is still my favorite day of t ...

Who can it be now?

Sat, 23 Jun 2007 20:44:15 -0700

So, remember last month when I said I'd be posting more now that I'm unemployed? Yeah, it also helps to have internet in order to do so. It's been a very odd month of transitioning for me lately, and I guess I haven't really known how to compartmentalize (Mitch is that the right word?) and deal with all the changes I've tried to make.
First of all, I quit smoking. I am sure one day it'll make me a happier, healthier person. But ask Mitch abo ...

I feel like a Myspacer!

Thu, 24 May 2007 17:51:09 -0700

I am just making a post to say I uploaded one of the few decent pictures of me from the convention this weekend. It shows off my hair a lot better than many of the pictures where I was making faces at the camera. Luckily, Charles was able to get a good shot of me when I was leaving one of the meeting rooms.
Brian took some horrible pictures of me at the Atlanta zoo. I don't like having my pictures taken when my feet are blistered, I'm sunburned, and ...

Don't know what to do with myself...

Thu, 24 May 2007 17:28:59 -0700

It's the first night that I haven't had to bring home work since I started teaching summer school last June. I don't know what to do with my evenings anymore. So, guess what? I'll be blogging a lot more, and that might be a good thing and it might be a very bad thing. I guess we'll find out.
I made a lot of new friends this weekend, but of course, no one lives in Alabama. :( They're all a billion miles away, but I now have widened my s ...

New Beginnings, Same old mistakes

Sat, 19 May 2007 13:08:19 -0700

I quit my job on Wednesday. Rather, I told them I wasn't coming back next year and not to offer me a new contract. As of thursday, I'm unemployed. This makes me unbelievably happy, but a little sad too. I am going to miss that hellhole, no matter how much I cried on the way home every day.
This weekend, I'm in Atlanta visiting a whole bunch of people that play KOL. It's fun, but being in a small room with two ex-bfs and the ex-crush at t ...

Hating you, if I could, doesn't make it hurt less

Wed, 16 May 2007 14:19:39 -0700

To quote a younger, dumber version of myself...
And the words that he said that brought my world to an end,
"I like you but I think that you're too good of a friend "
That was taken from a poem that I wrote in 1992 over some stupid crush of a boy who lied to me to spare my feelings. But how much has changed in 15 years?
I put myse ...

We're More Alike than We'll ever admit...

Sun, 13 May 2007 08:10:46 -0700

I'm the oldest of 4 girls who range in age from 29 to 14. Our poor parents!! My sister Meredith and I are only 2 years apart, and used to be really really close as kids. As adults, we've kind of grown apart due to distance, and inner conflicts within the family. Now, we've been talking a lot lately and we're trying to mend whatever rift we have between us.
Yesterday, on a 2 hour car ride back to my parent's house, Meredith and I had a long ...

I Hate Being Sick and Other Random Complaints

Fri, 11 May 2007 03:20:19 -0700

I've spent the work week in a daze. I went to the doctor on Monday, where he diagnosed me with a nondescript upper respiratory infection. I slept all day Tuesday, and spent the last two days at school being cranky and whiny. Thank goodness it's Friday!
Yesterday in my mailbox, I got my "Letter of Intent" to return to school for next year. I have waffled on my decision to return for months. I was sure that I had fully decided that I wa ...

Kicking the habit...maybe tomorrow

Mon, 07 May 2007 03:18:09 -0700

Hi, I'm Jen. And I have a procrastination problem. No, seriously, it's becoming chronic. I keep putting everything off, and so now I'm waking up with migraines and wanting to stay in bed.
Today, I woke up with the worst one so far. Friday on my way home from work, I was very excited about the prospect of having the house to myself. I envisioned all the things I could accomplish with no one to bother me. So many things on my to-do list, ...

The new Tori Amos Album

Sun, 06 May 2007 09:08:04 -0700

A short review of 'American Doll Posse'
After owning the CD about a week, I've finally been able to get through the entire thing. I have been a Tori fan since Under the Pink came out (and quickly fell in love with Little Earthquakes too). I have been there through some of her more unpopular albums and ones I couldn't stand (Aka Strange Little Girls). I've seen her on the Boys for Pele and the Beekeeper tours. At tim ...

The Power of Numbers

Sun, 06 May 2007 04:09:51 -0700

I'm a math teacher. It's not something I've "always wanted to do", but here I am doing it. Math was always something that came so naturally to me, that it seemed obvious for me want to share this information with others. I don't know if teaching is really my calling, but I'm enjoying it most of the time. My students often ask me why I think math is so terrific. The short answer I usually give them is because I'm good at it. ...

First Post! (Creative, isn't it?)

Sat, 05 May 2007 14:18:57 -0700

Hi everyone! I have a few friends that told me about this site, so I thought I'd give it a try. Of course, I'm not going to even let them in on it until I have something more substantial to show for it. But I like what I've read so far in this community, and I'm excited to be a part of it.
What you'll likely see here is a bunch of soul-searching ranting as I struggle to redefine myself. Lots of runon sentences will most likely occur, so I apolog ...