On a jet plane...

Mon, 28 Jan 2008 22:29:09 -0800

The date is set: February 24th I will be moving to Oak Harbor, WA from Shittown, Wisconsin!!!!!

30 days counting tomorrow.

Still hasn't quite hit me yet. I'm very tired though. More to come later :)

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Disarm me.

Tue, 23 Oct 2007 20:22:40 -0700

I want to punch someone right now. Or some thing. Or cause some major damage. It's taking every little bit of me not to start throwing shit around, screaming at the top of my lungs, and hurting myself in the process.

Why?

I don't quite know why. Nothing significant happened to make me start feeling this way. It has been more low key but the past couple days I've been so very irritated with everything. ...

Wanderlust

Sat, 13 Oct 2007 11:06:13 -0700

I'm officially going to visit my friend who's in the Navy in Washington State from Jan 4th-13th. Those dates just won't come fast enough. Maybe this is finally my ticket out of here. My mom of all people said she'd pay for my ticket to go back and stay if I decided to! Shit, man. It's a pretty good offer. But when I'm there for a week I'll do my surveying and detective work and decide. Hopefully it'll be a yes. ...

Sock-coffee

Sat, 29 Sep 2007 19:52:47 -0700

I went out for coffee tonight with an old friend I haven't seen in 2 years. He's in town, but I've always blown off his phone calls. This makes me sound like a horrible person. I'm the only 'friend' he has here in town (he's originally from Texas), he says. I feel bad, but every time we do get together, we talk about the same stuff all the time and it gets tiring. Tonight wasn't too bad, though. He's a very nervous/an ...

Sucking blood.

Tue, 25 Sep 2007 20:12:00 -0700

Okay so I wasn't thinking. Or maybe my calendar is wrong. But I've accepted some hours to work tonight from 10:30pm-1am and then just an hour ago (late, I know), I looked on my calendar and saw that I was signed up for 6am-9am tomorrow morning as well. But if Bev, the lady who asked if I could help out tonight knew that I worked those hours she probably wouldn't have called me, you know.
Shit. I'm not going to do this all the time. ...

Nutmeg

Mon, 17 Sep 2007 20:31:45 -0700

I'm really stressed out. I had to sign up for a 3rd class, and now I just got hired at a 2nd job. Juggling this and art commissions isn't very fun. But I must try to get by--I absolutely need to graduate this Fall....and if I have to work less/be even more poor, so be it? Hm. And no road-trips! Speaking of, my friend says she doesn't owe me anything. I might as we ...

plein air

Thu, 13 Sep 2007 00:07:29 -0700

i have math class tomorrow. joy.
then im going to try out my new camera tripod to put my Pochade box on and maybe paint outdoors if it's nice. looking forward to that. maybe i'll go out to my Nana's since she lives on a small lake. yes.
in other notes...i'm feeling quite lonely. tomorrow is ladies'night free beer and all at one bar and i doubt i'll go because there is no one to go out with anymore. oh well. i sh ...

You're intangible, untouchable..

Mon, 10 Sep 2007 20:00:43 -0700

Ani Difranco - Untouchable Face
"think i'm going for a walk now
i feel a little unsteady
i don't want nobody to follow me
'cept maybe you
i could make you happy you know
if you weren't already
i could do a lot of things
and i do

tell you the truth i prefer
the worst of you
too bad you had to have a better half
she's not real ...

Alone

Sat, 08 Sep 2007 19:57:58 -0700

I'm sick of having no, if few, friends to go out with on weekends. My 'girl-friends' either have an 'other', or is in another city, or in another state, has kids to tend to, or is pregnant. And as for guy-friends, basically the same thing other than the pregnant thing, of course. This is getting so fucking frustrating; I just want to run around and punch everything in sight, whirling around until I fall and pass out. I'm sick ...

Profess....?

Fri, 31 Aug 2007 00:42:38 -0700

My friend just professed his feelings towards me. I, myself, have no feelings towards anything at the moment. That in itself is sad. Anyway, point being: What do you do when a close friend says this to you. Belligerently drunk, says these things he'll most likely regret in the morning. While I worry about him. I have and made things ''lay low'' for a long, long time.
I believe everything he said though.
I thi ...

Seriously and Pillows

Mon, 27 Aug 2007 21:41:56 -0700

So tomorrow I wake up at the ass crack of dawn to work .... at 5:45am. Gotta love sticking people, sucking the ~~life~~ blood out of them for breakfast, eh?
Anyway, if one of the receptionists tomorrow, comes into the lab again complaining or bitching at me and my co-worker about something I'm going to lose it.
"seriously" is her favorite word:
"Seriously...put the slips ---"
"Seriously guys.."
"You have ...

1/2 pints of rice

Tue, 14 Aug 2007 14:27:18 -0700

When I was in Madison 2-3 weeks ago visiting a friend, we decided to go out to the bars on State St. As we're walking, there were three people ahead of us, and they came up on a homeless man. He was about in his early 40s or so, begging for money; anything. Before I could blink, the three people walking ahead of my friend and I gave the man 3 1/2 pint boxes of chinese food.
"Now that's real love!!.....See that?...Thank you, god bless you!.....Now that ...

Feelings

Sun, 12 Aug 2007 20:21:42 -0700

Something has been on my mind lately. The subject of feelings. Who "feels"? I've been having thoughts that no one can feel. That I'm kidding myself that I'm feeling...what is this sensation running through me. Longing? Cynicism? Or is it all a joke. I am lost in this concept, and I will never know since I cannot pry myself into someone's else's Self.
Do peo ...

I survived Rockfest 07...

Mon, 23 Jul 2007 22:35:33 -0700

...barely. Haha. Anyway, if you want to know what it's all about, search for it. Cadott, Wisconsin. It was an okay time. I'll write more about it later. Sorry about the hiatus.
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Numb

Sat, 07 Jul 2007 19:46:08 -0700

I'm in Madison visiting a friend who moved from my town. My other friend Mindy came, too. Exciting since I never come here and I'm all set to go to the gay bars or clubs in general. Right now they're uh busy and I hope they'll feel like going out after.
And you know what? I'm depressed as all hell and have been. For the past couple of weeks all I have been doing...
ALL I have been doing...
Is either sleep the day away, or ...

Question

Sun, 01 Jul 2007 20:36:53 -0700
Am I in a comedy or a t r a g e d y? ...

Smelly

Wed, 27 Jun 2007 17:20:32 -0700

Mmmm...my friend's cooking some brownies. I haven't had brownies in a long time.
I'm hungry for dinner. Craving something like spanish rice with black beans and corn and salsa. Or a quesadilla. Hm. maybe I can convince him to come with me to taco bell or something.
I think I might be in the early stages of carpal tunnel in my wrist. I had an appointment today anyway and I told her about it and she gave me a brace to wear. I ...

Blank Page

Sat, 23 Jun 2007 18:39:54 -0700

Borat is on TV right now. It's pretty funny.
"I like-a sex" "It's niiice" "Eat my tits!"
I sold a commission yesterday that one of my co-workers wanted me to do. Conte' crayon on watercolor paper. About 12x24in. Woman standing on a scale with her back to you looking down and crossing her fingers. My co-worker wanted to hang it in front of the scale in her bathroom. Odd, but okay, ...

Utterly

Tue, 19 Jun 2007 19:22:11 -0700

cost cutters (hair salon)
cost raisers (what it should be called because it's not any cheaper)
cost razors (play on words, accidentally said tonight)
I got my haircut at a different salon tonight. I may post a picture sometime. It's a pixie cut. I had one last fall, but I was thi ...

Write

Mon, 18 Jun 2007 16:41:34 -0700

I'll try and write later tonight. It's about time this needs an update. I had a bad weekend, got ditched on by the girl (K), got wasted last night (accidentally) and blacked out, and came to, and yeah...
Enjoy the silence.
I am not write.
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Into Dust

Fri, 15 Jun 2007 00:42:06 -0700

Still falling
Breathless and on again
Inside today
Beside me today
Around broken in two
till you eyes shed
Into dust
Like two strangers
Turning into dust
till my hand shook with the way I fear

I could possibly be fading
Or have something more to gain
I could feel myself growing colder
I could feel myself under your fate
Under your fate

It was you breathless and tall

It's a bitch...

Thu, 14 Jun 2007 01:44:39 -0700

...not being able to sleep. It's 3:31am and I went to bed at 10:30pm and it feels like I've been up this whole time. I have to work at 5:45am. Cool.
Anyway, yesterday was an exhausting day. Work went fine. I got to swim on my lunch break in my parent's pool, which felt nice because it's hotter than a hot person lately. Went down to Froedert with my two old friends, I still get along wit ...

Friend In ICU

Wed, 13 Jun 2007 13:57:13 -0700

http://www.fdlreporter.com/apps/pbcs.dll/article?AID=/20070613/FON0101/706130401/1289/FONnews
This is my old friend from Jr. High and High School. I found out about it yesterday and broke down into tears. I was close to her at one time but we drifted apart because of different friends and ended up going to different Universities ...

Bi/Slightly Gay

Tue, 12 Jun 2007 15:37:27 -0700

Your Score: Bi/Slightly Gay
You scored -12 (-52 being completely gay, 0 being bisexual, and 52 being completely straight)

(http://fsgbr.org/images/art_therapy_2.jpg)
http://deseretnews.com/dn/print/1,1442,660223974,00.html

Clover Quest

Fri, 08 Jun 2007 17:04:01 -0700

I'm still searching for a four-leaf clover. As a kid, I used to get down low to the ground, practically crawling in search of one. But I was unsuccessful. And I still am! It's very frustrating since my old friend had about 3 or 4 of them. Maybe I'm just not lucky--oh wait, I'm not. Go figure. Haha, but anyway, while I was at work today, having a smoke break outside the door, there were weeds and you guessed it, clove ...

Flying Flamingo

Sun, 03 Jun 2007 19:17:17 -0700

Going to a local bar for 1/2 price Exotic drinks with a friend. Tradition thing for Sunday's.
More to come.
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OrangeVanilla Drinky

Thu, 31 May 2007 19:48:11 -0700

So I'm posting another blog. My lovely drunken friend, Mike is sitting beside me with his OrangeAide-Vanilla Absolut Vodka. I'm drinking the same thing but, I'm not feeling it as much. Therefore I'm going to a local bar called Dilly's to get free beer for Thursday Ladies' Night. Whoo! Here I come.
I am waiting to hear from a couple friends yet...
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A Blogthing

Thu, 31 May 2007 10:55:01 -0700

The Part of You That No One Sees

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Rx: 1-2 Cigarettes a Day (2)

Thu, 31 May 2007 00:41:54 -0700
A-ha. I wasn't lazy and I looked it up. Dr.House Rx'ed 1-2 cigs a day to the patient who suffered from Irritable Bowl Syndrome. See? Told you cigarettes can do a little good. ...

Rx: 1-2 Cigarettes A Day

Wed, 30 May 2007 20:44:20 -0700

Wow, well, this is my first post. My first and sloppy attempt at blogging.
I have a really sore throat. It's not the scratchy kind, it's the someone-just-punched-your-throat, sore. So anyway, it's been like this for a couple days, I've swabbed it twice at work and I don't have Strep, so I'm sitting here thinking how......--Oh yeah. Three days ago I was hanging with a couple of friends and let's just say the smoke was very hot.
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